Positive

Tonight is in an oily paste of ugly gray
I prayed for this day
In which truth would awaken my tears
So that I could live on with no more fear

But he kept pulling me back
He kept tugging me back

So many times, I had already let him go
There was no way for me to know
He had the power to blind such intelligent minds
Or how easily he'd press a button and I'd rewind

His time here has gone
I put up this unbreakable barrier
I defended my dignity in battle
I wrapped my past in silk paper
And gave it to the angels
To keep it far away so it looks pretty
To strengthen my endless soul
To make memories an escape
To hold on to the belief in everything good
That could cross my path every day

But he kept calling me back
He kept holding me back

In fake words he would sing
And useless smiles he would bring
He is cold murder in disguise
I hope he dies as many times as he lies

I feel a soreness my heart could not imagine
A waste of the years melted within
Let me try to speak of happy things
And let me convey a light
I want to learn to inspire
Only positive aspirations in sight
I did the right thing
I opened a door to unleash my fears
Faced a lioness and a demon
Walked away a clean weakling
Willing to grow again

So now I let him go
And I can let him know
That my image stands holy
My nails bitten and my limbs bony
My head severed half way
My legs wounded from this decay

But I am sane and protected
More alive than a newborn
A gentle touch he can never feel
A cradle he can never rest in
For guilt will one day eat at him
His heart a flesh of his dirty blood
His eyes a wink in the wrong direction
A polution to warm affection
A breath stained with grease
A lover who doesn't deserve
To feel loved in the least

This is it, I've had enough
I've had more than enough

Of this worthless boy I'm speaking of