Honestly

There was a time when a sad wave
kept me from being honest with myself
and I could not read in the lines of the day
what it meant to love someone.

I look around at the prize of where I am
for leaving this gift behind too heavy
and I cherish the comfort where my head lays
and the lives that I share with pride.
I know my future is in my hands
and I can tell I can do nothing but succeed
at the demands of this world so sure
so replete with happiness and guarantees.

So why do I feel this part is lonely?
This part where I walk alone on a strange road
everything simplified in many dandy ways
but still an emptiness makes each step full
strangely darker since each minute is a breath farther
from this man my love so fondly speaks of.

To have him here
to share in these moments
to see the sunshine through the branches of my tears
to sit on the shade and hear birds sing my melody
to breathe the humid air
to discover the smell of wet earth
to watch rose buds bloom
into passion flowers as he touches my cheek
his presence
would intensify all my pleasures
like silence tenses once inside a chapel.

So I pray that this ride moves faster
so I can get to my destination and explain this in goose flesh
hoping he feels empty too without me there
inside his castle in the clouds
trading spaces with a whisper, a pillow, a song
holding his most sincere intentions
to be released again when I walk through his door.

Even though the ages and the miles and the new
might spread these memories throughout windy seasons
I'm so glad that I can look at us and know
how a blessing can affect a life
how the warmth of my lover's smile was worth every sacrifice
I know now that I am a woman with no bounds
no secrets, no fears, no lies
and that this loneliness I feel is the truth unfolding
its this that my heart knows how to speak about so honestly
because he has taught me the miracle
of what it truly means to love someone with no disguise.