Hangman

Lacy fingers against his mocha skin
The diminutive of what I was
Lying beside a moment of inhibition
I turn the page
His meaty lips cover mine in demand of something more
His legs are thick and I imagine everything else
Must be just like what I feel through clothes
He is watching me sing, I grab his skin
Taste the salty droplets on his neck
And feel like the best he's ever had
His hand slides heavy, shaping to all my body
Taking all the pain, chasing my tears
For a moment, just a moment in vain

I know I will tell him to go away soon
and someday I will cry
For another chance I watched decay
Crucify my senses once again
Afraid of being sacrificed by them
I know there are so many saviors
offering me their noble service
They'd take me into their arms any day
Kiss my feet and then die in peace
From the sex in my eyes
From my venom, my addictive lovemaking
The death grip of my thighs

I am the upside down hangman
I martyr love, let me feel again
I want to kill no more