A Place Too Dark To Reminisce

I tripped, I still fall
crawl, try to stare in awe
place my arms around his neck and draw a hug inside my broken wall
I can't open my eyes because they aren't ready yet
I whip a chain out and continue to beat my scars
I can't satiate in our sweat yet
I serve in waves of pleasure where he lays a healthy kiss
as if our hormones just came back from a war
they fight so hard and armed they dance
a trance, a chance I shouldn't miss
too deep again, inside the place too dark to reminisce
a place where I should find myself in bliss
where fire will never burn so innocent again
where I don't know how to let go so easily
where I found the brass key
to unlock so many meaningless demands
where I'm scared love will kill at me in the end
But I lend my hand
attempt a day by day though askance
let him unwrap me in thin layers
explore fields of freckles, birthmarks, goosebumps
study my math in angles, depth, shape, form
transform a sandstorm into a clear blue sea
the one that just might begin to slowly dig out
the death clung to me