The Clincher

Once in a while
My dreams take me back
I wake up looking for his face
smile
as the anticipation diminishes
I can carry on my daily tasks
passionately kiss
a mouth my heart doesn't belong to
I can live in the moment
without believing in a future
I can envision happiness
but not an ever after
I can dance
as a gentle hand holds my waist
as the rhythm takes me into bliss
yet, I am looking for a partner
The story with no end
the clincher
the involuntary breathing
without inspiration or purpose
the moments I realize I love him still