Dreams

Take me
I am beautiful
Together our hands hold the universe
My arm melts within your palm
Everyone is watching so
be very careful of the consequences
The temperature outside stains my breath
it feels like winter between us
All these lies dance in the dark
shapely lovers arrange these angles of pleasure
I like twisting inside of you
it never feels the same twice
it is always the same
the shape of your love is blurried
I am repressed of my needs
don't have the right to want
or ask for what I crave
you push me away
you hold all the strength
you initiate, only when no one is watching
I crumble into an uglier older woman
I lack a passion we both once knew
with the dreams now crushed beneath the ground
a terror falls upon my sore heart
the mountain road after an earthquake
I am looking for another U-turn
it is like trying to light a fire
with wet branches
like taking a chance on the weather
when planning an outdoor wedding
I need to believe in that kiss
but shouldn't let it take my breath away
I can't believe in your words
they are dead with my dreams
your dreams, our faith
After this cold shock
that numb touch that put my skin to shame
the dishonesty, the broken promises
you don't deserve my tears
I can't let my hopes die in this jail
I don't need your ring on my frozen finger.

Erase

I feel you spooning me
I wonder where you are tonight
I dream that you can still smell me
and I cry all I miss
try to feel proud
for leaving
All the consequences
pictures on the wall
framed
explained
I get better at faking
everything is fine
my diagnosis
what I feel
is so real
You. Here lingering
and your mouth to mine
I rip my shirt
wanting
curving my spine
showing you my
perfect breasts
I try too hard
to erase
but it doens't matter
you will always be
part of all I've ever
loved

Love Poem From The Toilet #2

I cry in the dark rainy evening
so my salty tears will dilute
in the sweet water mist
no one notices the puffiness through the new moon
I can still look tough
although my pores act like sponges underneath
all the storm. Soak it all in, soak it all
Not a drip endulges my dry existence
only that light from the tower behind me does.
Thunder crashes, dances, informs the weather
is only started to come down
My fat spongy body stretches along the cobblestones
and I lie looking past the clouds
searching for some answer with meaning, some sunlight
the split second I stare at your bright tower window
I get lost in my own rain, salty now for I've been pouring for days
The river I formed is placed in a desert
so that I evaporate to some purpose
suddenly the clouds swirl past many airplanes
new galaxies are revealed and the hot sandy air
turns my tears to water
my body to food and your sunlight spreads
through the stars into many constelations
shunning my touch from your kisses
and revealing the color of my dark eyes
misplaced on craters of full moon.